"NEW DIVIDE" ON AOL RADIO! :)

YAY! No cover art for it, but I am so thrilled to see it played on here!

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Proud mentions on AOL Radio! Front page news for the single, "NEW DIVIDE"!

I am so proud of my boys!

At work I listen to AOL Radio... I know, I should be listening to our stations but when we don't play the formats I want to hear, then what's the point? =X I get really excited to hear my band when they come on AOL Radio. =) So here's a few screen caps... random... maybe boring to you, but I love it! ;)

Journey

Last Thursday was my first weigh in! I LOST 6.5 lbs!! I am excited about this. I know it's small, but for a week that's pretty good! It's getting easier to drink my food...-laugh- The shakes aren't bad at all and I'm finding myself not craving food as much. Tomorrow I will go and weigh in again and we'll see what happens!

Dreams

This question was asked at LiveJournal.com:

"Do you ever have recurring dreams? If so, are they good dreams or nightmares?"


I wouldn't say that I have recurring dreams, but I do have recurring themed dreams. The theme usually revolves around my favorite things… a TV show or movie, a band or band member, and/or my husband. Last night I dreamed that Sylar, from Heroes, captured me and I had to fight him. Ultimately, to save my life I had to pretend to be evil to gain his trust… it was the coolest dream that I have dreamed in a while.

I think I will build a fan fiction around it…maybe?

Day Six - Journey

This...has been...the hardest...week...of...my...life. I love food. I love international dishes and good home-cooked meals from my mother... Unfortunately I need to get over this love and realize that food doesn't love me back. It's a love/hate relationship.

I've followed my program really good today. I've had tea and water to take away the hunger between meals and it seems to work. One more day until my first doctor's visit...we'll see. If I haven't lost a pound, I will try not to give up but it will be hard...

Great News! :)

I'm late on posting this, I know!


Linkin Park's new song title "NEW DIVIDE" will be released on Monday, May 18th for our listening pleasure on the radio! I am so excited! I'm also excited that LP will be writing the score for Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen! I'll be sure to buy my copy on June 23rd...and I'll be watching the movie the next day... I love Transformers... :D ((I miss the old cartoons... -sigh-))

Linkin Park has been such and influence in my life and I truly do thank them for everything they have done for me. They may not know it, but they've saved my life and I'll forever be in their debt.

Now that I have said my peace, I would like to rant...(late on posting this too...I've felt this way for a long time...)

I get so irritated at so-called Linkin Park "fans"...I'm talking about the ones who aren't dedicated enough to know enough about them and then bash their music. They love their older music and hate "Minutes to Midnight". I LOVE all of their music. I am a die hard fan and have been for many years. Don't bash a CD just because you don't like it. Constructive criticism is best. I don't care if they changed their sound. They are brilliant and I will be looking forward to every note they continue to write.

I am biased, but... I have read a few of the member's of LPUnderground.com's comments...if you're a true fan, don't bash them on the site where true fans love to give praise...we have too much anger in this world as it is and we don't need this kind of harsh behavior to make things worse.

Day Four & Five

May 10th: I should have made myself stay at home, but I wanted to be with my family on Mother's Day. I wanted to honor my mother and grandmother for being in my life. The only drawback is - the food. Southern women love to cook and do it very well. There was enough food to feed an entire army. Of course, from my previous post, my husband hurt his wrist so I had to prepare his plate. I will say this...I had a tiny bite of everything and it was very small...about the size of the circle below:

Actual size! I feel bad for having solid foods, but I don't think this was enough to harm my program. I should do better now that the weekend is over and I'm at work - busy and no distractions.

May 11th: I've almost finished my first week! I have two more days until I go back to the doctor.

On a joyful little note: I have a pair of pants that were getting a little too tight, but I can now wear them with ease. Doesn't mean I am going to stop - I need to see the progress of me needing a belt to wear them.

Day Three - Weight Loss Journey

It is Saturday, the day before Mother's Day...

I am craving my father's hamburgers and my mother's potato salad. I have already had two shakes today and will have another one soon. The really tough part is watching and smelling all of this food being prepared and having to prepare my husband's plate. Normally he would make his own plate, but he injured his wrist and is in a splint for four weeks - so I have to step up and be a wife and take care of him. I feel like a heroin addict going through detox. Food is an addiction to me! I feel like I'm having the shakes, and my nostrils go insane as the smell of food brushes by, taunting me...

I will get through this. I am going to have to stay away from family functions at least three weeks. People say that it takes three weeks to form a habit... if I can pass through the first week and on into the third I know I can do this.

Note to self:

"Patience. Breathe in - (not the food) - and think about what you will look like in 6 weeks."

Day Two - Journey to Weight Loss

Yesterday was, obviously, my first day on the 800 calorie program. I had a hard time around 8:00 last night, craving some type of solid food - but I overcame the craving and drank some water. This is going to be a struggle, but with God and patience I will be able to go the distance and reach my destination. I have 42 more days of this! I can do it!

It won't be easy, but I know that in the end, the beginning doesn't matter as much as the end result. (Ecclesiastes 7:8 - The end of the matter is better than its beginning and patience is better than pride.)

Medical Weight Loss Center

I took my first step Tuesday (May 05, 2009) and called an Internal Medicine / Weight Loss doctor. Thursday (May 07, 2009) was my appointment. She suggested that I go on an 800 calorie a day program to lose weight fast and effective. I have struggled with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome for the majority of my adult life, and all of my teenage life. I am insulin resistant and this causes the weight to stay on my body. If all goes well, I should lose the weight fast and I will learn how to keep it off. This blog from here on out is to help me realize what I am doing and what I need to do. If anyone is out there struggling with PCOS, I'm there with you.

www.mdbethin.com is where I found my local doctor who carries the products and who specializes in bariatrics.

800 Calorie Program Includes:

- 4 Meal Shakes

- 1 Meal Bar

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So far today, I've had my 11:00 shake.

I will drink my meal again at 2:00, 5:00, and 8:00. Unfortunately I had a late start so I may have to sneak in my bar somewhere along those lines...maybe with the shake so I am not depriving myself.

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-KM