Day Four & Five

May 10th: I should have made myself stay at home, but I wanted to be with my family on Mother's Day. I wanted to honor my mother and grandmother for being in my life. The only drawback is - the food. Southern women love to cook and do it very well. There was enough food to feed an entire army. Of course, from my previous post, my husband hurt his wrist so I had to prepare his plate. I will say this...I had a tiny bite of everything and it was very small...about the size of the circle below:

Actual size! I feel bad for having solid foods, but I don't think this was enough to harm my program. I should do better now that the weekend is over and I'm at work - busy and no distractions.

May 11th: I've almost finished my first week! I have two more days until I go back to the doctor.

On a joyful little note: I have a pair of pants that were getting a little too tight, but I can now wear them with ease. Doesn't mean I am going to stop - I need to see the progress of me needing a belt to wear them.

Day Three - Weight Loss Journey

It is Saturday, the day before Mother's Day...

I am craving my father's hamburgers and my mother's potato salad. I have already had two shakes today and will have another one soon. The really tough part is watching and smelling all of this food being prepared and having to prepare my husband's plate. Normally he would make his own plate, but he injured his wrist and is in a splint for four weeks - so I have to step up and be a wife and take care of him. I feel like a heroin addict going through detox. Food is an addiction to me! I feel like I'm having the shakes, and my nostrils go insane as the smell of food brushes by, taunting me...

I will get through this. I am going to have to stay away from family functions at least three weeks. People say that it takes three weeks to form a habit... if I can pass through the first week and on into the third I know I can do this.

Note to self:

"Patience. Breathe in - (not the food) - and think about what you will look like in 6 weeks."

Day Two - Journey to Weight Loss

Yesterday was, obviously, my first day on the 800 calorie program. I had a hard time around 8:00 last night, craving some type of solid food - but I overcame the craving and drank some water. This is going to be a struggle, but with God and patience I will be able to go the distance and reach my destination. I have 42 more days of this! I can do it!

It won't be easy, but I know that in the end, the beginning doesn't matter as much as the end result. (Ecclesiastes 7:8 - The end of the matter is better than its beginning and patience is better than pride.)

Medical Weight Loss Center

I took my first step Tuesday (May 05, 2009) and called an Internal Medicine / Weight Loss doctor. Thursday (May 07, 2009) was my appointment. She suggested that I go on an 800 calorie a day program to lose weight fast and effective. I have struggled with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome for the majority of my adult life, and all of my teenage life. I am insulin resistant and this causes the weight to stay on my body. If all goes well, I should lose the weight fast and I will learn how to keep it off. This blog from here on out is to help me realize what I am doing and what I need to do. If anyone is out there struggling with PCOS, I'm there with you.

www.mdbethin.com is where I found my local doctor who carries the products and who specializes in bariatrics.

800 Calorie Program Includes:

- 4 Meal Shakes

- 1 Meal Bar

------------------------------------------

So far today, I've had my 11:00 shake.

I will drink my meal again at 2:00, 5:00, and 8:00. Unfortunately I had a late start so I may have to sneak in my bar somewhere along those lines...maybe with the shake so I am not depriving myself.

-----------------------------------------

-KM

First Blog

So, I am totally new to blogging. Or at least I think I am. I've used livejournal.com, and other "journal" type sites. I assume this is the same thing?

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

[x] insert random thoughts here.


I just want to know one thing... why is it that when you love something, or you're a fan of something, there will always be that one person that tries to ruin it for you? I happen to be a fan of the "Twilight" series. Well, any time I'm surfing the internet looking for something "Twilight"-ish and there are comments involved, some ignorant fool has to come in and ruin the fun for the fans. Now, I'm not truly obsessed with the series but I do enjoy reading them and getting to know the characters. I can critique the series or have an opinion of it just as much as the next reader, but I cannot stand someone to come into a forum and write about how much they "hate it" and "anyone who reads 'Twilight' is stupid". That opinion could fly out the window. Keep those to yourself. I guess all in all, I should just ignore comments made.